My second favorite band has a song called "The Falling". I recommend that if you listen to country music, you give it a listen. The Eli Young Band is the best. Anyway, this is kind of going to be about that song, and how it is pretty much the complete soundtrack to my life.
"It ain't the falling in love I'm scared of." That's true. The idea of falling in love, and having your "other half" as it were is immensely attractive to me, and despite my rugged exterior, I kind of am a complete sap. Really. I secretly love books and shows and movies with romance. I think that falling in love would be a magical experience, but the cynic in me knows that its hard to do, and might not ever happen.
The reason this song describes my life, is because it really does reflect my cynicism about love. Love at first sight is a foreign concept to me, and I just...don't know what to make of love. When someone tells me they're in love, I just roll my eyes, and say, "Sure you are."
"It ain't the falling in love that'll kill me, its the sudden stop." Maybe that's why whenever I find myself in a relationship, I just shut down and find a way to convince myself it won't work. I'm a cynic, what can I say. And deep down, I'm scared of being hurt. But aren't we all?
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Well, now that you've all had some wonderful insight into the complexity of my feelings I'm going to go snuggle with my cat.
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